...waiting...

its 2:30 in the morning. sleepy.
i think i'm done packing my life into two pieces of luggage.

im talking to him. so many scenario's running through my head right now. what i've been waiting for these past few months is finally here.

plane flights have the same effect on me that a car ride does for a toddler. hopefully i can ignore the jumbled feelings and thoughts and just knock. out.

i can hardly wait.

one day you'll overstand

must. write. paper.

actually, i should be doing a lot of things.
be back later...
♥

hussel. hussel. hussel.

grind. grind. grind.

gearing up for my last week in the DMV.

that last sentence is kind of profound for me.

'never thought that would be me.'

i find myself saying that a lot recently, too. which only means, i'm growing--and growth is good. so many people (some, being some of my friends) are stuck in the same mind sets and lives that they've had FOREVER. and i can honestly say, thats never been me. for what its worth.

we are in the last month of the year, and this move seems fitting because with that comes the end of an era for me. the next few days will find me preparing for my final exam, packing, cleaning (ugh.), saying my last good-bye's, (and theeee best part?) the first hello's!

i know we're lost, but soon we'll be found

it was mid-january when i bought the Some People Have Real Problems album--an impulse buy while waiting for my coffee at a Starbucks in DC. thank goodness, i wasn't dissapointed. its really hard to describe Sia's music, and her voice--truly an instrument itself--lends to the soulful/indie/folky sound that i've grown to love.

i'm really dissapointed i missed this performance on David Letterman since all I seem to watch nowadays is late night TV. someone sent the link via Msngr to me, so *thanks!*
at first glance, i thought she was wearing some weird gloves, but her hands are painted themselves. enjoy...



even kanye (or his ghost blogger?) gave her props today. i love this song especially because its SO honest about relationships. (sometimes you just dont wan't to fight because you've drained all the living blood of me! hahaha..just kidding.) and it still manages to be positive at the same time.

its 'EFFIN collldddddd...

the mid atlantic area is seeing snow again for our winter season. this is a problem. for me, snow--in and of itself--i have no real problem with. its what the fluffy stuff comes with that bothers me. thankfully, this area's weather tends to be quite mild around winter time. i dont know how people live in Alaska. i really can't fathom 6 months of literal darkness. most know that i've self diagnosed myself with SAD. every winter, its something else..but usually what gets me is the fact that i

just. cant. warm. up.

im talking cold fingers. cold toes. cold in my bones...so im probably anemic. whatever. the only thing i look forward to when it cools down, is the change of fashion. i loooove boots, especially. ive sorted out my winter clothing and actually (gladly) gave some of them away. im pretty sure there's some correlation between this and feelings of loneliness. which settles in almost every winter for me.

in any case..my bed is also cold as hell and i cant warm that up either :(

the system

video speaks for itself. listen and reflect..

clarity @ 2AM

motivation is a hell of a thing.

i know for me, it can come in any shape or form. it may have been the way you looked at me.
or that tone you use when you think you know better than me.

whatever the case, the match is now officially under my ass. and i have you to thank for that!

work out plan

i took up jogging daily.

im not joking..today is day 2 and it feels great. none of my sneakers were purchased with the intent for excercise or physical activity of any kind..this may pose a problem later, but i should be able to fix that soon.

while jogging, i tried to clear my mind of the things that have been plaguing it recently. i semi succeeded, and for me thats an accomplishment. its hard to turn my brain off sometimes. i even had images of Kanye's Work Out Plan video come to mind as i was struggling to breath on my eliptical machine.

looks like jogging just may be my new therapy!

i had my ipod with me this morning and was listening to this song, which is quite fitting for the ladies! haha hopefully i can keep this up...*crossing fingers* and i should, because i'm obviously lacking any other physical activity in my life.

"STRING em like pearls, they look GOOD with my curls"

feeling rather dissapointed & exhausted with the male species right now.

im playing this over and over again till i feel better:


i wonder how she feels about this song now that she's knocked up??

Big Branch wasnt released on the US version of Kala, but it should've been!

i'll keep wishing

times are tough:

sometimes i feel like the woman in this famous picture.

Dorothea Lange // Immigrant Woman circa 1936.

THANK YOU GOD i dont have 7 kids hanging off me (and dont look it either). seriously, i wake up every morning and if i forget to pray i still dont forget to thank the lord jesus that i dont have any pickney!! sorry, i digress...situations have been tense enough, and in times like these like in the Great Depression, a good and healthy distraction is all we need!

the smart thing to do during these times is to plan..and hope and dream for a better day. for me, online window shopping is at an all time high. a girl can only hope and dream for a better day when i can afford this little piece of heaven.

aaahh..still broke and fabulous...

nothin goin on but the rent!

the wall street journal reports that everyone and their mama is losing it. im no different..my last day at work was friday.

so im doing what everyone else is:
- updating the resume
- checking my ING savings account religiously (just in case my wayward father/fairy god-mother left a gift for me and didnt tell me)
- window shopping and taking note of sales and coupons
- aaannd, finally, jumping ship

in many ways, a lot of people are tapping out as a means of survival. whether its selling stocks or pulling out of costly investments. a lot of people dont agree with this last option. some plan to buckle down and weather the storm. for some, its the only option and thats fine. i made the decision to move before these current events really hit close to home as it has.

im moving to a place that some may consider paradise (..and others have completely opposite and more negative sentiments). for me, it may not be paradise, but it is home. despite the eminent struggles ahead, i know i'll be happier there.

ugh.

so i need to stop being a vagina

and face the music.

new anthem!!

i always love hearing what kanye has to say. its always relevant. too bad he's hurting ;(

since August 15?!?

aahhh, yes..time to play catch up.

since my last post i've:

• been in and out of the country
• got a part time job...then dropped it just as fast
  
• did every day, mundane things with my lover
  
• weathered 2 seperate tropical thunder storms (Ike and mother effin, Gustav!)
  
• stirred up trouble/controversy within my family, with friends, and in the office
• got a boot on my car (thank you Gov't of the District of Columbia!)

so, no..i've not died--just a little out of the loop.
you can still reach me in alll the same ways as before. which is interesting, because my phone rings a lot less. the important ones know what it is..

and in the midst of everything, bestie and i still managed an under water phot shoot!

if you know me, you know...

its almost 2:30 am.

i just got in bed from going out earlier. i get a call from sergi-o earlier tonight and i was his arm candy for the evening. i do this a lot. not for serge, but for my guy friends, in general.
it was the grand opening of some club. i still dont know the name. but i feel like i always do when i go out and it doesnt totally suck: like there is peace and love in this world and every problem known to man (world hunger, racism, a failing economy) can be solved with a good DJ and a glass of something strong and icy.

when in fact, there are several things going on in my world right now that are very wrong.

been feeling like im standing on the precipice of something much larger than me. and its looming ahead. i hope its something good. no, great.

in the mean time--if you know me, you know that i'm still accepting applications for a sugar daddy!

(just kidding, babe...sort of.)

...and counting

this post was inspired by a funny little message i received on facebook.

see that little green number? i stare at this calendar on my cell allll the time. that date represents so much. i'll be going home to see my loves! August is flying by, but not fast enough.

proof, Gabs, that the count down is alive and well.

more CuDi goodness

so i need to get off this mans jock. and asap.

but i came across this video of KiD CuDi and this girl named Vashtie Kola. [quick tutorial: Vashtie directed the video for CRS' song(Kanye, Lupe, Pharell) Us Placers. She has designed for The Bathing Ape clothing line and is Creative Director at Def Jam. Her own line of clothing, VIOLETTE debuts later this year.]



apparently Vashtie will be directing the video for his next single, so it has a little promo/hype vibe to it..Cudi's nerdish character is hilarious!

whenever.

so i'm just trying to get through this week and counting down till i see my loves at the end of the month (!!!)
im thinking i need some major retail therapy (yes, again) to get me out of this funk i'm in. Stussy is having a sale this weekend so that may be worth a peruse, but today i happen upon this:

i'm more excited than i should be about this sample sale.

for anyone who cares, their supposed to be having a pop up shop. i heard they did one in new york the other day, so im excited now. some music thats been getting me through this week is a mixtape by the artist Kid Cudi. Go download it (its free..and its crack!). i keep listening to

..and imagine a certain someone is saying those words to me...

..and he said, #35

" you're my baby. i want you to have my baby. "

reunited.

its funny how people pass through your life.

one minute they're in your world, affecting you in some way, making an impression and the next minute they're gone leaving you with memories of the times you once shared. earlier this week, an old friend came into town and i was SO happy!

hanging with shawna these past couple of days got me in in a reminiscent mood. im reflecting on the girls we were back then--extremely sarcastic yet hopeful, funny, boy-crazy balls of energy--to the women we have become now--pretty much the same, but hotter and smarter.

life is funny. sometimes.

Mr. John West

< < my good friend, 'Lij--Alija Harrison aka Mr. John West.

he was recently featured as the Local Urban Gentleman. just wanted to give him a quick shout out. he deserves the feature, as he puts a lot of effort and time on his appearance--love you 'Lij!

last night a dj saved my life

besides my usual 9 to 5 adventures, i haven't had the desire to venture out this week. someone even dared to call me an old lady! i did manage to go to this event:

i got there around 12, just in time to see my friend Jerome doing his usual crowd moving, so the place had a great vibe. a little after the Baltimore house music was at its peak, i made my way to Duke's City where there's a great dancehall party every thursday by a few dj's including my friend Gary aka DJ Nemesis

Nemesis (l) to the worrllll'

my weekends typically begin on a wednesday. is that normal? and no, i dont live in the club!

small sabbatical

so its been almost a week since i've last posted. and i've gotten reminders from people alerting me to that fact in case i forgot. imagine my surprise when viewing my counter.

100?!?

i realize thats not a significant amount in the large scheme of things, but, when did that happen? you crazy birds actually care about the shit i have to say?? i love you too!

The Wackness

definitely waiting for this to be released. a movie set in New York, summer of '94, and a few kids about to embark on their college years. from the same people who directed Donnie Darko. the soundtrack alone has me excited.

"give me the green liiight..."

think i may have an emotional attachment to this song, not sure.
one of the reasons i like andre benjamin so much is because he is a lover of the ad lib as much as i am. his ramblings towards the ends are funny...

the process

the past couple of days i've had a lot of things on my mind. im always over-thinking things, so this isn't anything new. but after a series of events i'm too tired to care.

i look like myself. act like myself.
but i sound like this guy:

by the way, i much prefer Eeyore to all the other characters...

whenever that happens, and i need to recharge, i listen to music and sleep. sometimes at the same time. i also eat. and sleep some more. i might start cleaning something. you may not hear from me for a day or two, either. like a mini vacation from my brain and everyone else. the problem is, i did all that and i only feel a little better.

i even changed my profile pic on facebook. nothing.

and its around that time in this "dealing process" that i start on some serious retail therapy. im really trying to practice restraint there because your girl is focused and is trying to 'budget' and make some moves in the near future. so i'm still dealing...

one day i'll overstand.

"your granny must be Navaho"

i'm sure everyone and their mama's cousin has seen/heard this, but im posting it cus it makes me smile.

they just look like their having so much fun with it. and isnt that kind of the point? a nice breather from the constant tag popping and ass shaking i'm used to.

I have no words for this.

EXCEPT (i cant help myself.. ), please note:

- the flag burning in the fire place
- Michelle's hair (wtf?!?)
- Barack's clothes
- Osama's framed portrait on the wall
- Michelle and Barack are standing 'on top of the world'

ignorance is soo prevalent in this country its sad. In other news, i got my stimulus check in the mail today.

THANK YOU MR. BUSH!!!

(never thought i'd ever say that)

Blu @ Black Cat DC

the show was already running an hour behind.

i was busy texting a few friends when these two guys in front of me (we'll call them Jim from Tennessee and Maleek from DC) decided to look over their shoulders and chat me up.

Jim: *mumbles something while staring at me*
me: i'm sorry..?
Maleek: yea, she looks like she knows Blu.
me: well, no...not personally. do you?
J&M: *laughing ensues*
me: *they get my trademark polite smile/rolling of the eyes*
J: yea, i drove all the way from Tennessee to see him perform
me: REALLY?!? wow...
M: where are you from?
me: i live in Maryland.
M: but where are you from?
me: Jamaica.
J: OHMYGOSH really?!? my best friend is Jamaican, he runs track with me and...
me: *my polite smile/rolling of the eyes combo was cut short cus Blu walks on stage with a huge grin on his face*

yes, and he killed it performing favorites (for those who are familiar) from his first album, Below The Heavens like Dancing in The Rain, Blu Colla Workers, and my absolute favorite:


i think its important to note that Jim from Tennessee knew allll the lyrics to every song.

and, yea, Exile was there in all his djing glory LOL

great show, and that was just the opener. i understand he killed it in NYC, as well?

photo love.

i've been doing my usual idle browsing on the internets, and came across this site. it invites up and coming photographers to submit photos of the person most important to them. the collection is funny, irreverent, and slightly addicting as i wait to hear from the ones i love...

herfavcolor

while the color blue isnt my favorite color, i am--and have been--feeling this young man.

Blu is a rapper based in the L.A. area, is a Preacher's son, has been homeless several times, and is very nice with the freestyle. I love watching him perform (just check out his YouTube videos) and thanks to his producer, Exile, there is a soulfulness about him that makes you want to listen to every word.

He performs at the Black Cat in D.C. tonight....im in therrrre.

it IS camille

a friend of mine was confused about the name of my blog. i guess i should've explained it earlier.

i was so conflicted in starting a blog, because everyone and their mama's cousin has one. i felt the thoughts that i had to put out there may be too reckless for some, or simply mundane (you'll come to find my thoughts are anything but mundane). i eventually chose the title i guess its camille because i knew it would be about me (hence the name) and all other titles including my name were taken! dont know what thats about because i dont know any camille's personally...

so, i guess it IS me...here i am.

take it or leave it. one day you'll overstand.

freshhh

new lay out..thanks HemJem!

confession:

i may have a sight, teeny-tiny, girlcrush.

apparently she's been an "it-girl" (whatever that means) for a while now, but i recently came across her photo while reading the current issue of Vogue at the hair salon.

the elusive Ms. Genevieve Jones

i would love to know how this black woman who is reportedly only 27 years of age (voter registration info tells differently, tabloids do their homework!) manages to have designers throwing their clothes at her, receives invites to all the hot events, AND affords an ultra swanky apartment filled with pricey artwork. HOW?!?

Somebody please tell me how she became famous for doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING a la Paris Hilton?? its reported that she's an "interior decorator" with no real college education and is financially supported by a wealthy exboyfriend. so no one knows what she really does. its like she's a 2008 version of Holly Golightly.
slightly envious of her swagger is all...just kidding. no, really.

Labels or Love

my friend kiwi just left the DMV and moved to NYC. they say people move to new york for labels or love (yea i jacked that from Sex and the City..). her reasons are a little different, with new priorities cus she's a brand new mama. but this post is to remind her of all the madness we'd get into pre-preggers:

the first night we reunited after leaving home.

one of our many happy hours

birthdays...

whats a four hour drive..?

there goes the roster.

so fourth of july came and went. i realized just now the holiday passed without my taking any pictures. this is strange because everyone knows i document everything. it was a weird mix of parring with old and new friends. another reminder that the social circles of D.C. are slowly closing in on me. over all it was a nice break from work, and my usual running around.

im not the ultra-patriotic type, but i did hit up a few BBQ's and had some apple pie. U Street was especially packed over the weekend because it was the 25th celebration of the Ethiopian Soccer Tournament. wish i knew more about that to expound.

i was updating some friends on my love life, and how i've recently thrown out my roster...by that, i mean my prospects, my team, whatever you'd like to name it. guys and girls both have it. i got every reaction raging from "are you ready for this?" to "im not even acknowledging that situation to shit on it".

one day they'll overstand.

SPRRUNGG!

I believe thats the term that best defines my current state of mind. or heart, rather.

i've been diagnosed by a few close friends, and the verdict is in. really not sure when this happened because singledom was a great look for me! or so i thought. you see, i'm the type of woman who (and will probably continue to) always have male friends. i have male friends in abundance. i generally cant keep girlfriends, with the exception of my bestie who i've been hitched to since the age of 9 or so.

and then i met a man who saw our potential, waayy before i even could. and i wont lie. this has happened before. usually, the guy is more into me than i am. but he waited...and waited because i'm a stubborn child. and i love him for that.



i don't think he's ready for the craziness that is camille.

DC Carnival 2008

As an islander, i fulfilled my obligatory duty to "get on bad" at DC Carnival 2008. I love that people of all races and nationalities feel welcome to participate. thats exactly what Caribbean people embody, really. history tells it.

I took my little brother, J because he's the most americanized immigrant little boy i know. I'm trying desperately to get him to soak up some culture. he wasn't ready:

all in all it was a great event. i wondered though, right after the parade was done (and i do mean two secs after), why the street cleaners were so intent on cleaning the road. not that i'm complaining, but Georgia Avenue never got a wash down like that before. you could've mistook it for a street in Canada.

and i'm not a huge fan of Soca, but this one gets girls moving every time:

..and he said, #20

i informed him of some new news. some new developments. does he not realize things develop? an hour is like a day. a week is like eternity. you snooze, you lose. and he said,

"the female species never seizes to amaze me."

he's angry, maybe. disappointed, i know. if he falls off, we were never really friends. the boring nights and funny texts were all for naught. i want to tell him,

"some day you'll overstand."

but he probably wouldn't get that either.

Hipster.

I have a real problem with that word.

Honestly, I have an issue with people misusing words and being completely ignorant to their actual definitions...sorry, pet peeve of mine--but anyway--after a recent conversation with a friend, i decided to look up the definition myself. My friend was convinced that a group of people that we were familiar with are hipsters and i strongly disagreed. I found the definition to be exactly what i expected:

hipster:
-noun, Slang
1. a person who is hip
2. one who is exceptionally aware of or interested in the latest trends and tastes, especially a devotee of modern jazz.

and to me, this definition is the most important:

3. a person (esp. during the 1950s) characterized by a particularly strong sense of alienation from most established social activities and relationships.

so, if you're doing something that everyone else is... :/

Living in this area, its no NY or LA. that being said, there is a beauty and charm all of its own besides the government hoopla. most notably we have Mr. Wale, a little shop that everyone frequents, a few good museums with a few good shows, and a great site that ties everything together.

its around here that i hear this word being thrown around a lot, and i roll my eyes every single time. the "new" hipsters and hype go hand in hand. and hype is just a necessary evil.

He said it best:

The Hype - Wale

Source: Dictionary.com

And so it begins...

My very first post! ohhh-emmm-geee!! Ok, i will stop spazzing. I promise if anyone comes across this post you wont be subject to silly internets talk (like ohhemmgeee...although, that is growing on me). i told myself i wouldnt start a blog. so, if you know me (i mean, know me) this has been a long time coming.