its 'EFFIN collldddddd...

the mid atlantic area is seeing snow again for our winter season. this is a problem. for me, snow--in and of itself--i have no real problem with. its what the fluffy stuff comes with that bothers me. thankfully, this area's weather tends to be quite mild around winter time. i dont know how people live in Alaska. i really can't fathom 6 months of literal darkness. most know that i've self diagnosed myself with SAD. every winter, its something else..but usually what gets me is the fact that i

just. cant. warm. up.

im talking cold fingers. cold toes. cold in my bones...so im probably anemic. whatever. the only thing i look forward to when it cools down, is the change of fashion. i loooove boots, especially. ive sorted out my winter clothing and actually (gladly) gave some of them away. im pretty sure there's some correlation between this and feelings of loneliness. which settles in almost every winter for me.

in any case..my bed is also cold as hell and i cant warm that up either :(

the system

video speaks for itself. listen and reflect..

clarity @ 2AM

motivation is a hell of a thing.

i know for me, it can come in any shape or form. it may have been the way you looked at me.
or that tone you use when you think you know better than me.

whatever the case, the match is now officially under my ass. and i have you to thank for that!